goodbye

from here

I have had a big, emotional, exhausting day.  A day full of sadness, strangeness, celebration, realisation, memories, grief and love.  

Funerals are weird, i really struggle with them.  They have a huge purpose, a final goodbye but i cant help thinking about the injustices of life.  Cancer is horrible.... how i hate it for taking away people i love.  

The service today was a perfect celebration of a life.  Short, simple and a few funny stories.  The wake was interesting and strange (i drank way too much pear cider and didn't eat enough baby sandwiches)......  

Now i am so drained and emotional, sitting here trying to make sense of life, and why these things happen.  Sometimes its just not fair.... that's all i can come up with.